Chevalierdepees

So he can see what he thinks I am
Ribbons and laughter
Musk scented room, dances to the tune of madness
A confession played on rose petal lips

So you can see what I am
A phantom mirror guilded in a hallway
Fluttering in the gloom, shadows of anguish
While in the silence of the night you drown me in tears
The pain of a million deaths enbalmed in the charade

So you can hear my words
When you silence me with your cries
And with the heart you denied me in a blind desire
Forgiveness and mercy I cannot fathom
Beating in the melodies of an unkown march

So do I see what I can never attain
In the hidden laughter of a dark passage
I stand alone
Scrawled fears on a paper long forgotten
Yet
Flickering in the wind from some opened wound
A candle imagined, like hope, maybe
To taunt me forever as your own
But eternally apart.

Gravestone

A swirl in the sand
Waves crushing stone
I reach through the mist
At imagined bliss
A world at my command
Fading fast beneath the moan
The welling rage of the storm
Cold, sharp, beautiful on my skin
Pounding at the beast within
As I've lived
I die alone.

Childhood lost...

Childhood lost
Somewhere along the twisted street
A leaf torn from the bough
Scattered over the pavement like a broken dream
Caught suddenly in a gleam
A yellow moon
Sending down a beam of light
A star has fallen from the sky tonight

Girlhood stolen
Somewhere along the coastline
Between the rocks and the frigid rain
The sun will not rise on her again
The pounding waves tearing at a tender soul
Heart slowed, limbs gone cold
The wind spinning laughter over the sand

Woman taken
Somewhere along the barren fields
Deep in the heart of the scar
Where dried reeds whisper of ancient hurts
And no cloud dare shed a tear
Awaiting the breeze of times forgotten
While something precious slips away
A desperate longing withers here
For the merciful light of day

For S.J.

Let me die of your love, if ever I must die.
May it be your hand that plunges the blade
into my soul
Like the heart I blissfully gave you
What can I be, what could I possibly be to you
When I have nothing beyond your smile
The faint touch of your hand
Your soft words, words of vague tenderness
That ignites hope...some damnable hope!
Let it die, love, take it from me.
As you have taken all else, may it be a gift
That you may never suffer
That your heart remain young
and your face forever beautiful
That you laugh at the world, sheltered child
Free from pain. That I disappear in your light
and that you never think of my black heart
that you never dream of my hateful face again.