Sometimes death is so sudden
and other times it can be so long
death with come and i will be gone
Is that what you want my love
my lord can you hear my plea
come come and rescue me
before time is too late
and death comes it is my fate
for then to be taken away
should i be happy to miss your face
shed light for me to see your grace
as darkness now fills this place
Come for me master make me new
fill my soul with love I cry for you
bring me into your longing embrace
make me yours make me beauty
Let me understand your lessons
Rescue me from this place
Deliver me away to your love
This I ask of you my dark lord
I cry for you
I want to be something more that a mere human
although to you nothing holds more grace
I would be your companion forever if you wished
I would never leave your beautiful side
Don't leave me to die in this waste
I want to live forever in your grace
I wish to see your magnificent face
o master my lord I wish now only to be with you
If i call your name will you come
When I scream it loud do you hear
I wish to be released this body of pain
Why must I suffer why must I lose this war
One day death will come take me away
Then will i see you and know you
I can barely write this come please take me
For i feel this world is beyond any change
and change it must if i am to remain
New Dew is here
................and there
on the ground
................don't you see it
covering the leaves
................and blades of grass
Is there meaning in this
................is there purpose
oh yes the day is new
................this place has changed
and time is passing
................even for those everlasting
dew like tears
................weeping for the year
lost and dazed
................so much has changed
but there it remains
................this place this dream
what is left
................but hope
hope to change the path
................the future lies there
will you approach it?
Where are you? Where have you gone?
You're not here, and I'm all alone
A road to nowhere, trapped and alone
Please come get me, before I'm gone
After searching and searching, far too long
What have i found, My will is too strong
Still looking, I have not found the one
To call my own, that special someone.
Days go by, and nights get slower
Lying here, all alone and bitter
Wondering, when will i see you
Totally Lost, and blue without you
Calling Calling Calling You
is making me so blue
Calling you all day long
I'm coming on to strong
Know i can't help it now
Must get to you somehow
Pain in my heart so soon
Makes my head start to swoon
Friends we have always been
and will be til the end
but this has got to stop
and you have got to hop
If you plain to remain
in this state of frame
Promises must be kept
it is your fate to wept
Darling Young boy
with a rose in one hand
you walk over to her
but she doesn't understand
how precious you are
and brushes you away
like so many times before
She listens and doesn't hear
More from the people that don't care
and they lead her now where
even today after all those years
She is lost in a neverneverland
she wishes you were here
and she could smell that rose
and recieve the sweet gift
you offered her one day
But this cannot happen
and unfortuately she knows
the chance to say im sorry
is lost as the wind blows
I ask a question only to you
I go crazy thinking about you
Often have i tried to call you
Only no answer you blow me off
Are you afraid of me Why?
I try not to bother you
Know how much you hate me
I need a response form you
Have but one thing to say
Please tell me are you okay?
I try to ask everyday
How are you Are you okay?
Daytime the sun shines
And I am blind
The Moon will soon rise
and so again will I
Nighttime and the Black Sky
Both Mysterious and bright
will i hide tonight
away from all sight
For the sun today
no longer will it shine
and this dark shadow
it will never find
Can i live in the light
with my skin so white
oh how i want the sun
to shine down
How I wish i might
survive first day's light
then maybe i will know
and my skin will nolonger show
this being i've become
lost in the night
my misery then will go
and life will never know
The sun would burn me
surely then i would die
i think it better to die
than to live this lie
continue i will for now
unknownst to me just how
but that moon i know
will come to beckon me so
As the sun shines down I think of you
Of everything that was taken from you
When i look at this beautiful day
I only wish that you could see
things right now beautiful to me
the flowers are blooming so
with beautiful fragrances bestowed
as the trees wonderfully show
in the basking new sunlight glow
a new shade of green never before seen
only in this moment is given to me
this wonderous sight to see
As the night finds it way
I see beauty of this day
Wishing i could share this with you
I find a time to sit and think
of something wise to say but I fink
and then this is laid in ink.
My love for you is like a rushing river.
At first it just might make you shiver.
The rapids come and the rapids go.
But my love for you will always show.
The deepest parts are the calmest parts.
It is where we are bound heart to heart.
Although we are so very far apart.
I will always love you with all of my heart.
The river comes and the rivers goes.
And every day a new rock shows
We face each one as the one before.
We always do our best or more.
The river is fast
but we'll stay to the last.
We'll always be together
together forever and ever.
A love so pure only for you my dear
Bebe there is nothing for you to fear
Angels fly hight and my love soars
this feeling inside begins to roar
I miss your touch and you so much
Time we've lost seems such a waste
Nothing to lose we acted with such haste
We gave up everything we had and loved
I wish i could go back for one day
Would one day make a difference
It would be the same either way
Still nice it is to dream and hope
That in one more day maybe i would change
A sliver, shiver, shake oh no a snake
a snake so deadly so mean
to break each and everything
i wish a snake to bite
and me to see a joyful light
I wish I may I wish I might
have this snake bite tonight
Eventhough it makes me shake
for a snake a snake i ache
Maybe an earthquake
could rattle that snake
Maybe a blizzard
could make me shiver
but i doubt they sliver
the way it silvers
around my heart
open and torn apart
anaconda anaconda please come please come
anaconda anaconda please come please come
even though in and out you go
even though even though
please anaconda anaconda please come
make me shiver make me shake
make this earthquake
anaconda please for you i wait
please use me as bait
ANACONDA
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Your music fills my soul,
it releases me, makes me whole
goes where no person can
deep inside this heart of mine
makes me feel so alive
this little life of mine
will be so empty inside
without you and your song.
I close my eyes and strain to hear
a beautiful rhythm now appears
a song of sorrow and of fear
to which I hold truly dear
my whole body then starts to sway
as I listen to this music faraway
this tune is playing for just me
or so it seems, it calls to me
forever to be still and listen
as the midnight dew begins to glisten
A Rainbow is but a bunch of colors thrown together is it not?
Or maybe there is more That we cannot yet see
What a lovely dream To think of such a thing
A Pot of gold that sits and waits at the end
Waiting for its hero to rescue it or so they say
What if that pot is there waiting and no one knows
Nor do they care for they do not believe its there
Then who would go and see who would it be
Maybe you would like to see maybe you it would be
But wait you do not believe And so I will just sit here waiting
And here I will stay until you come for me
Until you look this way
For this pot of gold you must find your way
I come to you for an understanding, comfort and help
To only be met with opposition and malice
for it seems noone cares what i got thru
so many times have i thought things i shouldn't have
maybe if i was gone things would be better for you
but who am i kidding this is about me
what can't i express to you my feelings
and for once can you not say anything just listen
that's what i need someone to listen not to tell me how wrong i am
maybe i should talk to someone else but who no one knows me like you
its ok for you to complain but anything i say is wrong
why am i always wrong why is everything my fault
when i say you dont know how frustrating this is
your response yes i lived with you
what makes you think i should be capable of anything
when nothing i do or say is ever right
what should i do tell me what to do
must i find someone else to talk to?
Pen to paper
and so I write
to those who care
i am alright
things have changed
and it pleases none
oh how i miss it
it is done
oh how i wish
it was undone
for those who miss it
come undone
the air is foul
and the streets are blank
as my hand trembles
i see his face
My beloved is dead
dead by grace
would his grace
rescue me
i think it not
so wise is he
in shadows he flees
in darkness i wait
my day will come
it is my fate
but heaven for sure
will see my face
for when comes darkness
i shall embrace
this deadly immortal
shall take my place
a hole beneath me
a hole above me
a hole beside me
a hole through me
a hole over there
a hole right here
one in my stomach
one in my hand
one in my arm
one where i stand
one in the sand
one on my finger
This hole will stay
around me you see.
for this hole can
see straight thru me
for i am nothing
this hole can see
and everyone else
has nothing for me
for at this time
there is not one
that isn't poking
can't this you see
my time is done
Darkness arrives day passes by
The moon appears in the dark sky
Oceans begin to churn the tide returns
Worry not for love draws me near
And into darkness disappears
Oddly now a deep sense of love
Moves through me as I stare above
all movement decreases now silence resounds
a fog moves over me falling down
Wonder will I begin to drown
Above the water I can see
a yellow light growing brightly
It seems to be searching searching for thee
Still such beauty mine eyes do see
a glimmer of hope escapes me
As my body falls under the sea
My heart is now filled with glee
Remember it is you I will soon see
As your cape it now entraps me
Heaven's gate now is opening
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